So, I am still making progress. Granted I wish I was completely "cured", I am getting a grip on my feelings and thankfully I have been sharing what is recommended with my husband, who holds me accountable for my missteps...
My missteps are simple avoidable ones, but I am trying to undo a lifetime of damage... I have trouble with those dang "boundaries". I lend my ear too long sometimes, I worry about too much after these long "listening sessions" and I have that problem saying "no".... so, when I complain, J says, you were on the phone way too long, or why do you now have this new task, etc... it's funny when he reminds me, but frustrating that I let it happen.
I am still worried about my grandma, and am working toward letting my fear go. I am trying to tell myself, that "she is 90, she has had a great life, and that when it is her time, it's ok, to be sad, but she will be better and whole in heaven and I can't cure her and keep her forever, or control her health, but I can control my mind and how I deal with things".
I go back tomorrow and will report my latest progress, because I do believe I am making small strides...
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